Jun. 2, 2015

WHEN EVERYTHING IS AGAINST YOU...HOW DO WE CLIMB OUT OF THE GUTTER?!

Up during another bout of painsomnia and came across two comments from some Sickle Sisters telling their truth on one of my post. It sounds so familiar because it is our story as well. Sometimes your mind can be your worst enemy. Especially when you have been doing for yourself for so long and now you can't. Especially when you get sick and can't take care of yourself. Especially when you are down and have to depend on another to do the things that you used to do for yourself. Imagine being an adult having to have your loved one wash and clothe you. Imagine being an adult and can only get 5 minutes of cleaning done before you pass out. Just IMAGINE IT! PLZ..PLZ..I CAN'T GO TO THE RESTROOM WITHOUT AN ASSIST AT ALL RIGHT NOW BC MY HIP DOESN'T WANT TO STAY IN AND I CAN'T WALK...STILLLL! THE REPLACEMENT IS TOP OF THE LINE BUT MY BONES AREN'T. With all this going on how can we not feel like a burden. Friends and loved ones back away because SHE ALWAYS WANT SOMETHING! You know what...I'M SORRY FOR THINKING THAT YOU CARED AND UNDERSTOOD WHAT I'M DEALING WITH BECAUSE OF THE NUMEROUS HOSPITAL STAYS AND THE NUMEROUS NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCES THAT YOU KNOW ABOUT. MY BAD FOR ASKING YOU TO PICK SOMETHING UP FOR ME OR HELP ME WITH A TASK THAT I NEED TO GET DONE BUT CAN'T SAFELY DO IT ON MY OWN.#REAKTALK ...I APOLOGIZE.

I HAD TO LEARN HOW TO WORK AROUND THE CRAP BC IT'S JUST TIRING TRYING TO GET BACK UP WHEN THE FOLKS WHO SHOULD UNDERSTAND THROW YOU AWAY.

YES...PAY BILLS ONLINE
YES...SHOP ONLINE
YES...SAMS DO ALL THE SHOPPING FOR YOU AND HAVE THE BUGGY WAITING WHEN YOU GET THERE.
YES...WORK ONLINE
YES...MEDICAL TRANSPORT

SO YESSSS...I HAD TO WORK AROUND MY FALSE EXPECTATIONS OF OTHERS AND JUST BEGIN DOING ON MY OWN AT MY PACE.WITH THE FEW THAT I KNOW GOT ME.

Omggg...I'M SORRY Y'ALL! #SPAZZ ON A THOUSAND...GEESH SHAWNSTESTIMONY.COM