SPEECHLESSSSS...JESSE WILLIAMS...DON'T GOTTA SAY NUTHIN!!

YES...I HATE THE TERM #BEINGLIGHTSKIN JUST LIKE I HATE #CUTEFORADARKCHIC! YOU WILL SOUND IDIOTIC SAYING IT AFTER READING THE SPEECH:

He began by thanking BET and all involved in the video that preceded his appearance, his wife and his parents "for teaching me to focus on comprehension over career, they made sure I learned what the schools are afraid to teach us.

"This award is not for me," he continued. "This is for the real organizers all over the country, the activist, the civil rights attorneys, the struggling parents, the families, the teachers, the students that are realizing that a system built to divide and impoverish and destroy us cannot stand if we do. It's kinda basic mathematics: the more we learn about who we are and how we got here the more we will mobilize.

"This award is also for the black women in particular who have spent their lives nurturing everyone before themselves -- we can and will do better for you.

 "Now, what we've been doing is looking at the data and we know that police somehow manage to de-escalate, disarm and not kill white people every day. So what's going to happen is we're going to have equal rights and justice in our own country or we will restructure their function and ours. [Standing ovation.]

"I got more, y'all. Yesterday would have been young Tamir Rice's 14th birthday so I don't want to hear any more about how far we've come when paid public servants can pull a drive-by on a 12-year-old playing alone in a park in broad daylight, killing him on television, and then going home to make a sandwich.

"Tell Rekia Boyd how it's so much better to live in 2012 than 1612 or 1712. Tell that to Eric Garner, Sandra Bland.

"The thing is though, all of us here are getting money, that alone isn't going to stop this. Dedicating our lives to getting money just to give it right back to put someone's brand on our body -- when we spent centuries praying with brands on our bodies, and now we pray to get paid for brands on our bodies?

 "There has been no war that we have not fought and died on the front lines of. There is no job we haven't done, there is no tax they haven't levied against us, and we have paid all of them.

"But freedom is always conditional here. 'You're free!' they keeping telling us. 'But she would be alive if she hadn't acted so… free.'  Now, freedom is always coming in the hereafter, but the hereafter is a hustle: We want it now.

"Let's get a couple of things straight. The burden of the brutalized is not to comfort the bystander -- that's not our job so let's stop with all that. If you have a critique for our resistance then you'd better have an established record, a critique of our oppression.

"If you have no interest in equal rights for black people then do not make suggestions to those who do: sit down.

"We've been floating this country on credit for centuries, and we're done watching and waiting while this invention called whiteness uses and abuses us, burying black people out of sight and out of mind while extracting our culture, our dollars, our entertainment like oil -- black gold! -- ghettoizing and demeaning our creations and stealing them, gentrifying our genius and then trying us on like costumes before discarding our bodies like rinds of strange fruit.

"Just because we're magic doesn't mean we're not real. Thank you."

 

MY EYES ARE OPEN

I HONESTLY CAN'T SAY WHEN OR WHY I TRULY BEGAN TO BREATHE FAITHFULLY AS WELL AS FREELY, BUT HERE I AM. NO ONE WILL EVER KNOW UNLESS I SAY/TELL/TESTIFY. IT IS EASY TO SAY...YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND IF YOU DON'T HAVE SCD BUT EVEN THAT IS NOT COMPLETELY TRUE. I HAVE THE SAME FORM OF SCD THAT MY MOTHER HAS BUT SHE WAS ABLE TO WORK ON HER FEET FOR 40+ YEARS AND WHEN I WORKED I LOSS CONTROL OF MY HANDS(TRAUMA). SO WE ALL MAY HAVE SCD BUT EACH BODY IS STILL DIFFERENT...THIS IS WHY THE DISORDER IS SO COMPLEX. I WOULD ACTUALLY WANT TO GRAB SOMEONE WHEN THEY SAY...MY COUSIN HAS SCD AND SHE IS NEVER SICK THIS MUCH!!! THAT IGNORANCE WILL FOREVER BE THE DOWNFALL OF SCD B/C NO ONE REALLY WANTS TO TAKE THE TIME TO **TRULY**LEARN. I AM NOT JUST SPEAKING OF THOSE WHO DON'T HAVE SCD...ALL OF US! I AM IN MY 40'S AND I HAVE JUST STARTED(5YRS) READING/RESEARCHING ABOUT THE DISORDER THAT HAS TAKEN OVER A HUGE PART OF MY LIFE...THAT IS CRAZY, BUT LATE WILL ALWAYS BE BETTER THAN NEVER. IF WE DON'T TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY, WHY SHOULD ANYONE ELSE? I AM A FIRM BELIEVER IN...WHEN YOU KNOW BETTER YOU DO BETTER. RIGHT NOW SHOULD BE THE TIME WE START EDUCATING THE KIDS AS WELL AS OURSELVES ABOUT ALL OF SCD...WHEN THE KIDS ARE LEARNING ABC'S &123'S, SCD SHOULD ALSO BE INCLUDED FROM THE BEGINING. WHEN I STARTED LEARNING MORE AND MORE AND MORE..I BEGAN TO BE MORE GRATEFUL AND LESS FRUSTRATED B/C THIS DISORDER IS A BEAST!!! AND STILL HERE I STAND! I BEGAN TO FEEL MORE CHOSEN THAN CURSED B/C I AM STILL HERE!! I BEGAN TO TRULY/HONESTLY BELIEVE THAT GOD DOES HAVE ME HERE FOR A REASON!! THIS IS WHAT READING/RESEARCH DID FOR ME, SCD IN NOT JUST A DISORDER TO ME NOW...IT IS A RITE OF PASSAGE.

 

I say it lightly but SERIOUSLY... #SCDLIFE IS NOT AN EASY RACE TO RUN! To survive the the roadblocks that were thrown at me continuously DID HAVE ME TALKING TO GOD EVEN MORE THAN I ALREADY DO. I was taught earlier before I even knew I was in class that I AM BLESSED BECAUSE I HAD PPL WATCHING OVER ME! THAT LESSON WAS PROVEN TO ME OVER AND OVER AGAIN SO MV FAITH IS UNSHAKABLE! MY GUARDIAN ANGELS ARE DOING THEIR JOBS AND I SOO APPRECIATE THEM!

I AM LASHAWN...I BLEED RED!

I am Lashawn Hutchinson and those that know me personally have just recently gotten to know how Sickle Cell truly affects your mind/body/ soul! I didn't hide INTENTIONALLY and I didn't lie out of DECEIT. I just wanted my issue to remain that. Now that I know that was THE CRAZIEST thing for me to do...I BEGAN TO SPEAK OUT.
I'M JUST ASKING FOR SOME SUPPORT FROM THOSE THAT TRULY GET IT. YES...HOW ARE PEOPLE GOING TO KNOW IF YOU DON'T TELL THEM. I AM ADVOCATING MY WAY AND LITERALLY SPEAKING MY MIND. I HAVE TO MAKE UP FOR ALL THE YEARS I REMAINED QUIET. SO PLEASE PLEASE SUPPORT US AS WE TAKE THE STAND FOR A BETTER FUTURE FOR OUR UP AND COMING SOLDIERS!

I know that I am very late in doing this but it seems that time just get away. So... I have a moment or two so I am going to tell you all about {MOI}!! Lashawn Hutchinson is a female, a woman, a girl, a child of God, a gift from God to become the daughter of the most phenomenal parents, the sister of two of the most exceptional human beings that I have ever met, can't leave out my other siblings (cousins), a wifey, best friend to the most genuine and loyal person that I know the mother to two of the most amazing babies and an auntie to a few more but that is just my intro. If you are here to know the whole story then I am gonna share what won't be in the books. So many ppl don't believe that I do this without HELP! When I SAY to them "MY COMMUNITY IS MY HELP" ...they give me that GIRL! YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT face! I don't have help PHYSICALLY but I believe that MENTALLY I'm able to make sure my precious time is used for all the things of import.

TRUE TALK

AS A CHILD...NEVER KNEW THAT I WAS DIFFERENT. I THOUGHT EVERYONE WAS FEELING THE SAME THINGS THAT I WAS SO I NEVER STRESSED IT. My parents were proactive even though they had no clue of the strength in which these cells possess. My ma changed our diet and my father stopped smoking etc etc ! I had pain now and again as a child but NEVER had to be hospitalized! My SICKLE DRAMA didn't arrive until I became a young adult! The drama with this illness and the medical community went hand in hand for me. What do you do? I went through a phase of tryin to figure out what I was doing wrong for the hospital to treat me the way that they were. I'd under dress or over dress..cried or didn't cry...I JUST DIDN'T GET IT! I DIDN'T EVEN ASK FOR THIS ILLNESS. THEY HAD ME SO EFFING MIXED UP IN THE HEAD...I ALMOST KILLED MYSELF CAUSE I DIDN'T EVEN WANT TO GO BACK TO ANY ER. IMAGINE BEING A YOUNG ADULT GETTING HIT UPSIDE THE HEAD WITH AN ILLNESS YOU HAD NO IDEA ABOUT! IMAGINE GOING TO THE PLACE THAT'S SUPPOSED TO CARE FOR "YOU" NOT THE "ILLNESS" THAT THEY SEEMED TO HAVE A PROBLEM WITH AND YOU GOT STEPPED ON! WHAT DO YOU DO? I HAD TO FIND A HOSPITAL THAT TREATED ME LIKE HALF A HUMAN BECAUSE I WAS AWAY FROM HOME IN COLLEGE ALONE (BESIDES THOSE THAT I MET IN GA.) I FOUND THE SICKLE CELL CLINIC AND I WAS ABLE TO BREATHE AS LONG AS I WASN'T ADMITTED (GRADY SUCKS)!
Even though pregnancy is frowned upon in the medical community, I believe it saved my life. I was referred to Dr.Douglas Collins in Atlanta Ga. by my baby doctor and I have been with him for 17 yr now! #WontHeDoIt...He is A #BLESSING!
NOW...

THE CHILD IN ME

I'm a product of my environment PLEASE BELIEVE THAT! I was raised by some of the most phenomenal people that I have ever known. My Grandmother NEVER left me. ..THAT IS A FACT! My mother was AND STILL IS WAY AHEAD OF TIME.  IT'S AMAZING HOW THE CHOICES THAT SHE MADE IN THE PAST CAME TUMBLING DOWN SO BEAUTIFUL IN THE PRESENT. I have to share that story later. My DADDY...THE ROLE MODEL AND OUTLINE for ALL men to strive for.  He has the heart of gold and yes my daddy quit smoking when he thought it would affect our health. I have to share him with you guys later. What I am trying to share with you is how my childhood affected the ME right now. .#TBC♥